wow.

some people might remember an old set of facebook statuses of mine. at a point in my life where i was really confused, and fighting an uphill battle. well, i’m still confused, and i’m still fighting an uphill battle, but at least i have a better grip - namely, on GOD.

it’s just … wow. just about everyone who has been to church at least twice would have heard that GOD’s love is “infinite” (or “unlimited” or “endless”, same thing). i never really believed that to be true - since i had a limited perception of these things, it can only really be expected.

but, it is. it just … is. just when i thought i had reached the end of myself - right there where i was about to give up - GOD stepped in, and the mere touch of His presence has restored me. i can say that honestly - don’t have to make these things up anymore for the sake of “fitting in” with the “church crowd”.

i’m basically at a point now where i really don’t know which way is up. i’m still not entirely sure how i got here. but here i am, and forward i plough, and that “i will walk with you” promise that GOD makes is really becoming more true every day.

i honestly don’t know how i survived for so long, while completely rejecting the idea that an invisible and intangible ghost-god could have any direct influences in the real world.

now that i’ve seen His miracles, naturally, i’m a believer. i’ve been a “christian” for as long as i can remember, but it’s only now that i finally believe that He is real. ironic, isn’t it? most “christians” i know are not much different - they profess to believe in a miraculous GOD, but live their lives as if without Him.

Jeremiah 29:11 is true, people. i’m not even getting paid to say that - quite the opposite, in fact. but there are just some things that cannot be contained. GOD’s glory is one of them.

the most ironic thing out of all of this, is that most people expect GOD to manifest in a way you can physically feel. cold skin, inner fire, trembling, and all those other things which, to be absolutely honest, i have almost never felt.

GOD isn’t in the shoulder-tapping business. He doesn’t need to remind you of when He is near, since He is near all the time. assess how you’re feeling at this very moment. GOD is with you, waiting to hear you speak.

why is it that most people expect some sort of “response” from Heaven when they pray? personally, i find this somewhat amusing. GOD is responding every minute of every day, but we are so focused on the answers we want to receive, we fail to notice the answers He is giving us.

if you feel as if your prayers are hitting a brick wall, ask yourself this question - why are you praying what you are praying? ask GOD to show you what it is He wants you to pray. this seems a little selfish and/or backwards, but He knows you better than you know yourself, and He knows just what you need.

when you pray what needs to be prayed - when you are in line with His will - you will witness miracles you never thought possible. and they won’t arrive with a bang (at least, not all the time), but you’ll wake up one day and go “wow … GOD actually answered my prayers…”